second fam

is it just me, or do we not hang out anymore? :o Am i the only one thats concerned about this? -__- bleh.

Todo list:

1. throw some kind of house party end of the year.
2. find some way to make my parents (and bro) leave town. :P
3. reunite second fam. ( ed, jess, kanow, adam, chris, etc.)
4. buy some anti-depressants (jk)
5. idk after that.

-thomas

xkangthomas: hahaha ohh your funny. shutup -.-
daniel: hahaha well it happens :/
daniel: sometimes you gotta watch your own back
xkangthomas: yeahh...
xkangthomas: do you trust your friends?
daniel: i guess. you?
xkangthomas: yeah . duh
xkangthomas: yep. well, i like to think so
xkangthomas: well just a few
xkangthomas: thats wahat friends are for? right?
daniel: oohh k
daniel: haha then do you trust yourself?
xkangthomas: uhmm i guess?
xkangthomas: idk sometimes i suppose..?
daniel: how can you trust your friends, when you cant even trust yourself?
xkangthomas: umm theyre my friends?
xkangthomas: well.
xkangthomas: idk.

-thomas

nice weather

today :)

hmm.. so i fell asleep at around 6 AM ish haha x]
and woke up again at 9 oclock to get ready to go to chris's church, but our ride couldnt pick us up so i just fell back asleep.Woke up again at 2 oclock.

hmm spent most of the day just kickin it with kanow and teng. Movie, pizza, jaccuzzi. After driving kanow home me and cteng watched "shes the man" because i was so "great"

last night of freedom. hmm wat to do. wat to do.

-thomas

coffee house

day one of parents out of town.

drove to christina's house at 2 30ish. watched movie, ate burritos and chips :). drove to my place, then to the park, then to my place again. ( alot of driving) at my place watched " the Ringer." Christina made me an egg sandwich :0 then went to christina's church.

Coffee house: watched alot of perfomances, drank ALOT of rootbeer. It was fun. :)

edwin dropped me and kanow off. House is pretty lonely at night :(

-thomas

quote of the day

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth.”

— Benjamin Disraeli

-thomas kang

this weekend

parents and bro leaving to go on a rv trip. i wanted to stay home. so open pad this weekend! car this weekend!!!

dang itll be lonely at night tho, anyone wanna sleep over? :D

-thomas

way to tireeed

to be dealin' with all this shieeet.

what a craap day.
beastlee, hope you feelin' better,
was kinda' lost without you today (:
i'm here if you need me, you know that.
PHONE CALL AWAY!

how many times can you fuck up.
seriously, get it together before you hurt someone else.

-kanow

rbc team

Dang we shouldv won that game :o. I kept slipping and sliding, and i didnt get any passes :(. ahh it was only one loss :P we will win the next game fosho.

but we wouldve won, if SOMEBODY had decided to show up to cheer for me >:) you better come next game this friday, outside courts, be there. or be square. :]

s s s s s s s s s see yah.

-thomas

What's ganna' happen?

it's a question that runs through my mind a lot.
usually i think of the worst, but hopefully it won't be.
tryin' to get some priories straight.
the school years comin' to an end and i got a lot of
catchin' up to do plus a whole mess of things on my mind.
i'm seriously prayin' for the best.

today i talked to a friend i haven't been talkin' to lately.
did lots of catchin' up, and it felt really nicee.
updated him on what's been goin' on in my lifee.
after he made a whole mess of mean comments -.-
goodluck with your "plan". LOL

YOU KNOW WE LOVE YOU.
haha, no doubt about that.
here for you in a heartbeat.
not much to say here, but your someone i can and do go to
when i need a shoulder to cry on.
man, you've been there for me when i just wanted to vent everything out,
or just wanted to cry without havin' any questions asked.
it's a two way deal (:
don't hesitate :]

" & in all this chaos
we somehow found safety. "

LOVE kanow.

ohh whuutt

dear kanow and jessica

Thanks for making my day homos! :) Totally unexpected visit with bombass brownies, just what i like :). thank you

love thomas

staying home.

i dropped out of school, im starting homeschooling now..HAHA JYEAHH JK

its ok kanow! who blogs anymore anyways right? I do D:

pretty bored. Im sick so im staying home today. I wonder how things will be from now on x.x. hmm not sure, but my gut is telling me things will be fine :) Although things didnt go as smoothly as planned, and ive lost alot of things while traveling on this road, and that person might be mucho awkward to me. Things are going to A OK. :)

ima go download some new music for my EYEPOD. peace

-thomas

promises that can't be kept,

shouldn't be made in the first place.

gaah, sorry thomas, i haven't blogged in awhile.
this place feels so dead, no ones into it anymore.
i feel like it's not the only thing that's dying out..

uhh recap of last week.
i guess i'll start with saturday.
woke up to play some tennis with jliu, thomas, wes, beast, and adam.
it was pretty fuuun, hit for awhile then played some bball in the sun!
thomas wes and me owned up adam's lame team. (:
then went to adams to chill, played some games..
eric came and the guys started to play some intense halo.. it was pretty scary.
i don't really remember sunday, just that i slept alot.

so i came home today and two of my brothers friends were waitin' outside.
tim&eric. soo i let them in and we ate food and talked. then my brother came
down and yelled at me for lettin' them in -_-
today was really borin' at school, bleh, it was to hot for tennis.

" you say go slow,
i fall behind " -quietdrive

-kanow.

gawsh

where's kanow its so lonely in here T.T

i think making a blog where only i can read is really helpful. O and to danchan my #1 fan. Thinks my blogs are more interesting then newspapers. thanks wierdo :D

-thomas

breakthrough

jesus
plays a bigger role in my life than i ever thought He would. Today church was deader than i can remember, I havent been to church for about a month or two. As soon as i walked in i sat down while everyone remained standing and worshipped. I prayed, the most desperate and serious prayer i have ever conjured. That moment, i prayed with all of the emotions i had welled up inside and each word i repeated with such a depth that magnified and reassured that everything would be fine. Being in this.. house, brought to me peace of mind. It took problems that had been bothering me and broke it down, i can see, everything doesnt have to be as complicated as it seems. I really made a breakthrough today.
I accept my impurities, i cant say i dont care about anything anymore.. but im prepared to face it and come out on top.
i am at peace.

Sin has lost its power,
death has lost its sting.
From the grave you've risen
victoriously.

Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame.
By the cross you are the truth,
You are the life, you are the way.

My dead heart now is beating,
My deepest stains now clean.
Your breath fills up my lungs.
Now I'm free. now I'm free!

Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that i have found.
Oh the marvelous light
Marvelous light

-thomas

nap

wow such a long nap, ill probably be awake pretty late tonight.

Well...
im sure ive gone past the point of no return. i remember when we were just close friends, things were all good in the neighborhood, we never had second thoughts. we would joke around and none of us ever took it seriously, everything ended up with a good laugh. But ever since that ended and we became more then that, i have to say it was pretty cool. It felt like it was ment to be, we were already close friends and nothing would ever come between us because we already have such a strong bond. Now i realise its not like that. A fear, that i could lose you, totally killed it. My attempts to become a better man to you than a friend, was accually killing it.
whatever's coming, whether it be good or bad. i think im ready for it.

-thomas

workout!

today. Woke up SOO EARLY. 9oclock! dammn!! to get to rowland park to play bball with the team. When i got there NO ONE WAS THERE, turns out change of plans everyone bailed out. So i met jliu, jess, and kanow to play tennis. We played at school because the tennis courts in rowland park were packed. Met up with adam and wesley, played some tennis. Then played some basketball in the intense heat! While we were playing jennifer "accidently" touched something. you so dirty jliu! haha jk i know it was an accident.. right?? o.o haha. Went to adam's place later and played guitar hero for like hours.... and then owned up on xbox live halo :)
Some guy we were playing with thought kanow was a dike.. HAHAHAHAHA he wanted to go out with her... HAHAHWLSOLOLAHAHA.
Stayed till about 4 oclock, Jess's mom dropped me off. My mom's throwing a party downstairs with bunch of people. Im just stayin upstairs, i dont like it when there's too much people.

that's today

-thomas

ending

pretty good ending to a not so pretty day.

yup, so on friday night.
I chatted with edward and adam about problems and about life, we all had nothing to do. (we were losers) Ed tells me that he was home alone and had a car so me, him and adam hit denny's. So bomb it was soooo gooood T.T i wish i was hungry again so it would sound good right now, but im so full i dont want it.
As soon as ed dropped me off at home, me and jliu take a walk into the vantage pointe view. It was awesome, especcially at 12AM. You could see the citylights begin to gradually dim as the midnight fog set in, it was cool. We talked for about an hourish. There was a cop that parked right in front of us, we had to sneak all the way around behind the bushes to get away. We literally had to crawl on our hands. Then when we were in the clear we sprinted home. :o
pretty action packed, right??!

thanks :)

-thomas

weeeeeeek

was crap.

just got back from chris's church a few minutes ago.
it was pretty fun, i really like it there (:
umm, weeks been watever, really hate school.
grades are closin' and i'm diein' in a few classes.
bleeeh, tennis in the mornin'
i'm ouuut

-kanow

[untitled]

fuck you

these days

hey! this is blog #101, woot woot ^^

today after i left the track, hung around to wait for grace to get out of class. Then me, julie, grace got a ride from some guy i never seen in my life. Went to julie's chilled, napped, ate. Went to mcDee's with janice and julie to get some iced coffee. Julie's mom walked in on me while i was changing. It looked like i was putting my pants back on and julie was in the room. i hope she didnt think anything.. o.o

these days, are so... out of the ordinary. i dont know how to explain.

-thomas

drained

dead from practice today.
feet hurt like HELL.
ran hella' looot, then stayed and played for a few hours.
my partners back! soo that's good.

man, i don't even want to think anymore.
exhausted from puttin' so much effort and energy
into things that don't matter.
feelin' pretty empty.

now ima' go write a stupid essay -_-
all nighter?
BLEH. tired enough as it is.

"A little memory loss is good for the soul"
-kanow

um,

yeah.

another watever day. tennis practice is startin' to get
intense again. feeet hurt, back hurts tooo. took some meds.
went to prc afterschool with erin and beast. i have no idea
what i'm writtin' about. LOL.

feeelin' us drift.
just know i'm here?


-kanow

doesn't bloggin' seem pointless these days?

" there's NOTHIN' wrong with comin' to a deadend."

haha. felt like startin' out with the quote today.
soo lemme recap the last few days.

FRIDAY: freakin' pointless day. hung out at eric's with adam, ed,
jess, kat, then the girls went to kat's to change. um, went back to school
sat around, then lanny and his friend came. dragged the guys outta'
eric's and did nothin' for awhile. ed and eric went back, and the rest of
us went to dolphin bay. bleeeh, shoulda' went to chris's church!
feels like whenever we all make plans, it never works out.
oh and walked around the tennis courts at night with ed, kat and jess.
haha, memories started flowin' in, talked about a few things with jess.
highlight of my friday. LOL.

SATURDAY: grounded. so it was a crap day -_-
failed to play tennis, mom was bein' a BITCH.

SUNDAY: went to grandma's really early in the mornin'. saw my uncle
that i haven't seen in a long ass time! <3 had a long talk with him.
he was tellin' me about different ways i could sue the school. LOL.
theeen we talked about college, then life in general. theeen drove back
homee and sat around, waitin' to go out to eat with family. bleh.

school tomorrow. -_-
i use to actually like school, but now i'm just
countin' down the days. i can't wait for this month to end.

kanow.

this weekend

hmm. dont really remember.... oh

friday: uhmmm.... after school there was no track practice so i just went home, phillip kicked it at my house for a bit. Then at like 8ish went out with julie to get her slippers and watch X-men Origins. Came back to julie's at like 10 30 and stuffed myself :o. stayed till like 12:20. :)<3

saturday: DANG im losing my memory!! uhmm hmm. o, woke up at like 12, so i was too late to join the guys up at rowland park. stayed home all day till 6. Where i met up with Geoff for old times sake and his buddies to eat some krn bbq. Met some new people, (note: white boys cant cook korean bbq.) AFter stuffing myself got picked up by my dad and went to julie's. Followed her, janice, and perla to buy something. stayed till 11 30? :)<3

today: mothersday. bought some flowers and went to rosehills to visit my grandma's grave. Crowded as hell, alot of people visiting their dead mothers i guess. Went to l.a and ate some bombass sushi at a bombass sushi bar. :D then came home and took a nap.

-thomas

bad vibes,

pretty bad day.
bleh, and to top it off it was flippin' hot.
stayin' up late today, sadly -_-


"if everyone got a happy endin',
they wouldn't mean so much."-JAMES.

-kanow

omg!

ap test tomorrow.
today, was hot. I was stuck at the track meet in black jeans until delia lended me her shorts. You're a life saver! After the meet, went to julie's house, her mom & aunt said i was pretty.

I should be cramming, gtg.

-thomas

buhbuhbuh bye track season

todays ch5 news:
+ i did not make track finals, so my track season is over
+ today was hot and so will tmrw
+ prom is in a week
+ ran to dolphin bay with christinaaa teeengg
+ boba is disgusting
+ apush test is on friday
+ im in love with julie shin
tune in next time.

" An eye for an eye, turns the whole world blind."

-thomas

THOMAS KANG.

I WAS KIDDIN' (:
you know i love you blog buddiee! :O
I CHEERED FOR YOU.
hehe, hope you made finals! (:

weeks been watever.
prelims was fuun to watch!
congrats homos for doin' good! :D
um, today me and beastlee had to go watch the
softball game for a bit. it was weird. LOL
haaad so many test today, bombed the bio test -_-
wow, i have nothin' to write about!
so i'm out! gotta' memorize some stupid passage for english -_-

have no idea what i'm doin'
just goin' with everything as it comes.
worryin' what's ganna' happen.
hopin' for the best.

"stayin' conscious enough just to hit replay" - drift away

-kanooow.

track prelims

so today was track prelims.

i did good on the hurdles: 44 secs, 2 second PR! but i still came in 6th/8. crazy competition!

nicole has no respect for my PR >:( i'd like to see you try, if you can even see past the hurdles! HAHA jk

"NOT" -borat

-thomas

ADAM

REALLY SUCKS AT SINGIN'
he is a tone deaf homo.

good weekend.

YESTERDAY: picked up beastlee and took her to this
flower shop to buy this mothers day thingy. then went to
adam's for like 5 seconds. went inside his house and it
was pretty boring so we left and went out to eat at hanasima.
called eddie up and we went to his house. i LET him win in chess.
we sang karaoke, me and jess got a 92 on "if i were a boy"
he is the biggest cheater in battle ship. -_- ate at his house, watched a
movie, went home and crashed.

TODAY: woke up at freakin 830 cus i thought i was ganna' play tennis
and run with beastlee&ed, BUT ED DIDN'T WAKE UP. but he texted me
later on and i went to his house for BBQ. omg , i'm so fat, second BBQ
of the week. -_- played some volleyball, one on one bball with tomtom.
I SO WON. finished Bride Wars (: then went home to watch Taking 5.
it was so lame, but the lead singer was hot. on phone with adam now so later!

SO THEN. thanks bestie for that support.
and i am so not toned deaf (: hehehe
thanks for gettin' me into church and worship and
all that good stuff (: and yeah, i'll be prayin' for the
best, no doubt about that. and no matter what happens,
i know i have you there for me.

"kidnap my heart, take me with you" -Taking 5

-kanow

ugh

need to studyo, no more playing around starting now

-thomas

the odyssey

After i came back from saturday detention, i had some tacobell: 3 soft tacos.

At around 2 oclock my mom, dad, and bro went to temecula, leaving me home alone all day till 10 ish. Jliu came over around 4ish cuz we were both home alone and she needed help on her odyssey project. I drew some pictures and wrote some of her "Ships Log." I tryed to make scrambled eggs but failed, i made her eat all of my failures. Soon got bored so i took the car out and we went to get some yogurt at Cefiore. (bcuz yogurt land has hard parking, and i was driving the damn jeep) The sherriffs office was right in front of the yogurt place, there were like police everwhererr. After we got some yogurt we drove to kanow's house to find edward having a complete makeover. nicole's mom was doing makeup on edward, it was super funny. Kanow's dad was acting a bit strange, calling me "sailor." After staying for a while, me and jliu drove back to my place cuz i didnt know what frsure what time my parents were coming back. When i got home i called my mom and turns out shes coming back at 10-11ish. Drank some soju, made jliu eat a spoon of WASABI for 5bucks, TRYED to drink raw eggs. So we continued to do the odyssey project and jliu is sitting right here watching 10 000 BC when she should be drawing her pictures! -.-

-thomas

saturday det

about to go to saturday detention, i think luna is running it today. fuck

-thomas

;

so i'm on the phone with adam and
he's a bitch -_- so meaaaaaan.

WED: kicked it with LJN2 minus truong.
pretty fuun. all we did was eat though, LOL.

THURS: hella' fuuun day (: except when i dropped my
book in the toilet so that was lameee LOL.
saw a familiar facee, so that
was pretty cool. did some catchin' up. (:
trackmeet was fun to watch.

FRI: went home early, mom was bitchin'. went to christina's
bbq thingy after at 6ish. it was REALLY fuun ;D
met some new people, worshiped, played games with little kids.
thanks for bringin' me and jess, really needed it.

so i listened to my mom yell at my brother that he never listens.
i wonder when she'll notice that she's the one that never listens.
so it kinda' feels like things are cavin' in again.
ugh, sometimes i wish things could be easy,
that way there'd be nothin' to stress about.
hopin' for the best.

"your world may shake, but you should never falter" - james
-kanow