last post!

can't say i really tried to keep this alive.
but i did try to keep the friendships goin'.
i think the gaps are already to wide.
saw it comin', so it comes as no surprise.
this blogs not the only thing that's changing.
new changes all the time, don't know if i like them all.
dealin' with what i got.
not thinkin' twice about the things i once doubted.
ugh, whatever. not ganna' bother with writing anymore.

-kanow

" It's only a mistake if you don't learn from it " JB

Disappointment is nothin' new.

not goin' to Thailand or Japan.
apparently tennis takes up to much time
don't you just hate it when someone gets your hopes up
then just uses some lamee excuse to crush them?

SO i've pretty much decided no tennis for me next year.
watched harry potter the other day with thomas, julie,
beastlee, and jamie the jerk! moviee sucked, but it was nice
seein' the jerk again (: we still needa' update :O

James came by yesterday before ditching me for Europe -_-
it was pretty fun though, we went to eat at Olive Garden(:
then went to this weird park that had HANDBALL COURTS.
daaang, talk about old school (: we played and this line of little
kids started to form so we left -.- and he left his ball there too.
DOUCHE (:L oh, all little kids are cheaters! >:[
so we sat on the swings and had this nice talk about everything.
been awhile since i just sat down and spilled my guts out.
gotta' say, it was fun and ima' miss your lame ass
theeen we went to jers house to pick some of his clothes up.
it was nice seein' him again? i didn't know how to act.
ANWYAYS BYE JAMES. webcam?!

ps. THOMAS IS GAAAAAY. aha (:

!

daaang, haven't blogged in awhilee.
i decided i'm only ganna' blog when i have something to say.
soo i may not blog for days maybe even months.
i doubt any losers read this besides thomas, even though
he refuses to blog -___- hehehe so ima' be usin' this as a personal
blog at times (:

SOOO nothin' goin' on over here.
went to watch transformers with some homos sometime last week (:
theeen went to speed zone on friday after tennis camp with eddie, thomas,
julie, jess, janice, grace, and chris. so i got in line to get inside the car thingy
and the guy asked to check my height and i was an inch off -___-
the whole line was burst out laughin' -.- GAY. then we went to target and
then yogurtland. YUM (: umm, saturday julie picked me up for the redmango
grand opening then i went to the dentist then a graduation.

tennis has been okie recently.
i dunno, i guess it's not that fun anymore.
i miss my old coach so much already :[
i get fustrated to much. goin' to thailand then japan for the last 2 weeks of summer?!
HOPEFULLY. i wanna' get away. i need onee.

"We should be buildin' this up,
instead of tearing it down"

i guess all good things do come to an end

kinda' like this blog.
buut i'm determined to keep postin'
yeah, i don't need a blog to cry with or vent on
that's what real friends are for right?
haha, i'm not sure what i'd call a real friend right now.

ANYWAYS.
soo yesterday was pretty bomb (:
beach at 5am with chris and jess.
we went with chris's church friends, met some pretty cool people.
then went to kevin's house and we watched a movie, ate, swam(:
we were playing games like ninja, and bang in the pool. LOL
got dropped off at home around midnight.

bleeeh, i don't feel like writing right now soo i'll fix this later
practice tomorrow -.-
ugh. no need to sign my name at the end of a post anymore huh?

ey wassup

Haha i havent blogged for a week or so. Dang! thats a long time ( for me anyways)
well yeah summers just been.. yah know. SUMMER. Chillin in shorts, going to the beach, sleepin with the a/c on, that sort of stuff :).

Anywho, looking back at my very first post, i think i wrote that i was making this blog " not to keep the peepz updated on the boring things i think and do everyday but for personal reasons.. blah blah BLAHH." I accually at one point used this blog as a last shot attempt to keep in touch with the "second fam." But i think its failed. This was like my only way to talk to them these days, yaknow? ahhh but not all goes as predicted, and we cant all share the wealth as though we intend to.. Personal venting/ outpoor wise. Im through with that. Suprise suprise i dont like drama and im not used to it, but when it comes to venting or stuff like that i dont think i need a online diary to collect my tears in. Ive cryed a river, built a bridge and gotten over it. I dont need help getting on my two feet from a blog.. that's what i have real friends for.

well didnt feel right when i was writing it, i sorta just babbled mindlessly. wtf am i talking about haha.

anyways, this is my last post, im done blogging. peaceout.

-thomas

edward

choi

yeah i dont know why you're suddenly making fun of me and julie. I dont know what kind of message you're trying to get across but..wow all i can say is WTF ?

get it together -.-

-thomas

transformers 2 fail

hmm.. today went to mt sac with julie. Waited in line with her to get her id and parking stuff. ate some flame broiler. totally knocked out once we got to her place.

Today we went to go watch transformers, but ended up watching terminator. NOT saying it was a bad movie, it was pretty good. But i wanted to watch transformers T.T THE line was sooo long. dang ima go watch it next time..

-thomas

bad to GOOD (:

ugh, finally went to practice today.
was frustrated like crazy, my hits just weren't working out.
tried out the new grip and everything, but it just made things worse.
needa' practice more, i feel so outta' place at practice
cus i know i'm the weakest player there. gotta' practice moree.
we did this drill where we had to volley, and i really wanted
to just drop my racket and walk away. MAAAN. i suck.

BUUUT. after practice i went to the asb meetin'
had fuun, then went to practice with my coach.
worked on my weak points, which is everything.
7-8 theeen these guys were there, justin, jeremy, and j.r.
played a game, justin was on my team, we had a crazy
comeback but we ended the game in a tie 5-5
it was so fun, i really like playin' with them, we rallied after till 9
got to know justin more (: it was fuun, but since i'm droppin' that coach
i'll probably never play with them again.
suuucks. oh well, hopefully i'll see them around?
mile tomorrow -.- shiet. hahaha.
gotta' watch transformers! HIT ME UP (:

" it all started with the smallest
thing that no one expected " - J.C.
-kanow

transfomers 2

gotta watch that man. gotta watch that. >:o

yeah lately just been playing computer games to spend the day. yup. hit me up.

-thomas

i feel like shieeeet

i hate being sick. The only good part about being sick is how great you feel after. Missed practice today, was really looking forward to it :I Apparently you can get colds in the summer -.- The worst combination ever is sunburn and a cold. When you want to blow yours nose, you can't cus your face is burning. sooo, i'm freakin' bored with nothing to do. There's NOTHING on TV right now, so i'm kinda just sitting arounf waiting for the day to end. Hopefully i get to go to practice tomorrow (:
this post was pointless. i'll fix it later. haha.

"promises that can't be kept,
should never be made"

-kanow

fathers day

wooo. we got a wii :)

for father's day we went to temecula to eat at some fancy buffet. Getting there took about 1hr 30 mins. I slept during the ride. We stopped by the Lee house. i was pretty sleepy, so i just layed on the couch. When i got up everyone was leaving and amy was downstairs but she didnt go cause she was already full. anywho, went to the buffet which happened to be located inside a casino. And DAMN it was packed! we waited for 2 hrs to get in. :o but damn. the food, is just WOW. soo delicious and the restraunt itself was fancy shmancy. After that came back home. gnight x.x

-thomas

Ohhh shitt

this week went by fastt. today was like.. vrooom.

imfreakingtired. been going to sleep at 5AM alot lately. haha -.- So what's crackin for 4th of july? Same ol' china town run? bill blevins? the old crew dont really hang out much anymore soo.. whats goin down?

shit im tired.

goodnight.

-thomas

NICOLE KANOW

ALKAJDSF;IADSJ SHE'S ALIIIIIVVEE. :O

NO, im not changing anything back till you start blogging more :)

Dear Mr Henshaw,
My blog partner accually blogged today! :O when i went on the dashboard it said 130 posts when it said 129 posts last time i signed on! duhn duhn duhn. My heart raced, nicole kanow was back from the grave!! ahHHH. Today was my parents' 21st anniversary so julie and i went out to buy a picture frame for their picture. Also stopped by petco to buy a 20 dollar aquarium cause just a bowl didn't cut it. Oof, can't really blog right now im too full from todaii x_x so ill just end it with this.

From,

Thomas

I'M STILL HERE!

gosh thomas, takin' me outta' the blog cus i haven't
posted in awhile huh? (: better change everything back! >:D

so my summer days have been filled with a lot of tennis.
i guess i'll make a short recap of my summer so far.

Friday: beach with asb (:
Saturday: movies at james's house!
Sunday: lots of sleep, tennis for 2 hours.
Monday: tennis 330-530ish. chris, theo, and adam picked me up after
and we met up with jess and tiff. went to the mall, watched Up and Hangover.
really good movies (: failed to meet up with eddie and whoever he was with.
Tuesday: tennis again.
Wed: first varsity practice (: 9-11:30. ariel came over to hang out a bit, went back to
school around 1230, hit till 530. grace went on a yogurt run (: went home
to rest up. practice with coach 7-9. my coach called justin to come
and he brought friends, played doubles with him, it was nice since i haven't
seen him in awhile (: hope he comes again
TODAY: tennis 9-1130. RAN A MILE. fastest time ever! ganna' do it for tennis
twice a week. it's like my own personal hell -.- i suck at runnin' distance.

so this post was pointless. i guess i just wanted to say hi to thomas.
soo, HI THOMAS. haven't seen you in awhile, hope your summers been great.
ima' talk about me now (: summers been funish. miss everyone, haha not really (:
i'm super sore -.- BACK hurts A LOT. goin' to the doctors again for it.
post a pic with your new hair! :O uh, okie i think i'm done.

" we never knew we were makin memories,
we just knew we were having fun. "
-kanow.

starting

got a library card, renewed 24 membership, long hair is gone, going to start working at a retirement home, check check ch ch chchchch checkkkk. there's still much to be done though T.T i need to fix this laptop, i cant even watch youtube anymore! stupid dustcleaner messed something up. :[ Well, im currently reading these random books i picked up at the library; The Red Pony & Wild Kids. I was walking through the fiction section and i just picked random books, like daisies. Anywho i thought it would help get rid of the lonelyness and the apparent talking-to-myself feeling by adding a receiver, like a letter..? :o like:

Dear Mr Henshaw,

Today was a pretty chill day, accually, scratch that. Replace the chill with busy haha. I woke up at 10 oclock, like usual. Julie came over to print out the resume stuff for edward's job application/ interview. Then we went to costco, then went to cut my hair. The guy that was going to cut my hair was.... enthusiastic. He was all excited about cutting my long hair. Like oh "im going to give you the shaggy look." blah blah. But as he was about to start, i just told him i just wanted it all off. He kept asking me if i was sure. LOL poor guy. After that went on this crazzy mission to buy goldfish for julie cause she wanted pet fishies. We searched from the Petco by the mall to all the way in Brea. Yeah i kinda think all that traveling was pointless, but we got the fish in the end, thats all that matters right? :D During the time we went to jamba juice. I ordered a strawberry wild POWER SIZED. like how the bigboys do it. Dang, but they call it "power" for a reason :o. It took me a while to finish it, but i pulled through T^T. (gave myself a pat on the back) d came back from all that to julie's place where i helped her paint part of her room, just around the windows. Chilled for a bit, ate. Then went to walmart, i wanted to buy some legos, buuuuuuuut im conservative with my money.. soo... legos some other time :,(

Sincerely,

thomas kang

P.s we bought 2 fishes. Mine is named Chips

Up

was such a depressing movie :[ AHHHHH

Downloaded some music today :P found some new bands along with new songs. ^^

Hm.. i dont know what to blog about anymore, writing about my day all the time is getting pretty old.

i suppose i dont have to sign my name after each post anymore since its just me now, soo..
goodnight...
accually im just going to keep signing my name after, just because :)

-thomas kang

p.s yes this was a pointless post.

first weekend

of summer break!! wooooooo

So yeah. went on an rv trip with the chois and phillip. It was fun, i had a blast :) From the arcade games, minigolf, & basketball, to the waterslides, rope swing, & pokernights, It was hella fun. I look forward to next time haha ^^

After we came back we ate pho and then went home. once i got home and did all the unloading, i took a shower then napped cause i was pretty dang tired. AFter napping i went out with julie, came back home, then went out again at 8:30 ish. Went to diamondplaza ( fob central) and looked around at all the useless merchandise from japan. Then went to yes plaza ( fob central #2) and played at the arcade, ate this bombass thai dessert bread thing. Bought matching cellphone accessory things, took pix at cue. home.

-thomas

before going

before going on the rv trip im going to post an entree.

Yeah so its going to be my fam and the choi fam going on one rv trip together ( o and phillip's going too) he's going to be the only jahnkeh. Lol.

Yeah so yesterday's graduation was fun haha. Watching all the speeches and walking and blah blah was pretty boring, but when we got to take pictures with the seniors, that was phun. PHUNN!!! after the graduation ceremony the choi family treated me to claim jumpers, it was good stuff :) took alot of pictures. ggood timmess.

well anyways im going to be out the whole weekend, and im not sure if there's reception where we're going. So bye for now :D

-thomas

this week

is going by sooo slowwwwwwww.

So today im going write my blog in a short story manner.

RINGGG A LING TING RING A DING, went my alarm clock as i sluggishly oozed out of my queen sized bed. Twinkles and spirals buzzed around my head as i lifelessly moved to the bathroom where i would do the usual routine of brushing my teeth. Monotonously i repeated my brush strokes while i layed out yesterday's events along with the mysteries of the yet unknown; today's breakfast, school, afterschool. Quickly putting on the clothes i had lain out the night before, i decended the light mocha colored staircase as the aroma of meat filled the house. Upon entering the kitchen i found my father starting on his breakfast and my mother doing the usual cooking. Breakfast felt like a blur ( like always) mornings have a tendency of bending the laws of time, 30 minutes into a morning feels similar to 5minutes in the afternoon. Perhaps one day i would understand the mystery of that matter, until then, the morning will continue to be a bitch.

High school, the pinnacle of formal education. Also the last gateway into adulthood. I dont think i would exactly know how to describe my second period class in any way without using the words "boring as fuck." Adam and I left in order to save ourselves the burden of wasting our lives. Anything would be better than making joking remarks about pictures in the yearbook in a classroom with only four people. In the brisk June morning, we wandered.

yeah im tired of writing like this.

anyways we met up with steph teng and her other overachieving classmates. Chilled for a while till the bell rang yada yada. The rest of the day was like a blurrr. uhhh. lunch. yearbook signing. swimming. say hi to katherine. take some pix. picked up by julie. nap. pho. view. home. that pretty much sums it up.

good' day.

-thomas

squoosh squoooshh

is the sound of rinsing orange juice between your teeth.

today was wierd without the seniors, it wasss emmpty. So day one of seniorless school.. was pretty uneventful. i didnt go to first period due to a schedule mixup. I thought tomorrow's final schedule was TODAY. doh! So i totally cut first period for like the gazillionth time. Other than that, swam, chilled, ate yogurt, yada yada all that good stuff. :)

yup. i suck at signing yearbooks. Unless i really know you, you'll be disappointed with a totally pointless message.

H.A.G.S!

-thomas

we run l.a

heyy whhatt. Im not really an nba fan but, i gotta say today's lakers vs. magics game was pretty intense.

Well, compliments to christina teng who said i would be the ring bearer at her wedding. I can finally check off the 'get invited to christina's wedding,' in my life goals. And new found hope drives me to continue to post entrees on my blog. thank you :D

-thomas

almost last day.

almost the last day of school for underclassmen. Last day of school tmrw for seniors :o.

This year went by so fast. Met alot of great life-changing people. Learned alot of new things. Changed in some ways good and bad. This was my best highschool year and also my most stressful one :P. Sorta feels like time keeps going faster and faster. Next thing i know ill be in college, graduating college, getting a job, becoming an alchoholic (jk), marry...?have a family, get some kind of disease, overcome it, become a dad that tries to be "cool," "hip," retire, live life having to take 102121 medications everyday, become old and weak, then.. you know what comes after that.

There are some people that i would like to know for the rest of my life of course. extraordinary. People that look like monkies, people that rape my butthole when im not looking, people that i can have totally pointless arguements with about icecream flavors, people that write me secret letters and give it to me between periods, people that wont invite me to their weddings, people that bring me brownies when i dont feel good, people that will play gears of war for 10 hours straight with me, people that have back problems so they wont be growing anymore, people whom have trusted me with their problems, people that will sit in the jacuzzi with a box of pizza and talk about life, people that will become the next madam president of the united states, people that have to rub lotion on every 5minutes, people who i can run from cops with at 12 AM, people who would play tennis with me even though i suck, people that know how to kiss me in just the right way, people who i can play blockles with until i see colorful blocks when i close my eyes, people that will stay a true friend through all these years, people that borrow my clothes and give it back weeks later, people that are down to spend their entire day with me, people who ask how im doing out of nowhere, people who make me feel important, people that trust me the same way i trust them. people whom i consider my second family.

i would like to remember them. you are appreciated.

-thomas

hi

jess, kanow, chris. i miss you guys.

second fam

is it just me, or do we not hang out anymore? :o Am i the only one thats concerned about this? -__- bleh.

Todo list:

1. throw some kind of house party end of the year.
2. find some way to make my parents (and bro) leave town. :P
3. reunite second fam. ( ed, jess, kanow, adam, chris, etc.)
4. buy some anti-depressants (jk)
5. idk after that.

-thomas

xkangthomas: hahaha ohh your funny. shutup -.-
daniel: hahaha well it happens :/
daniel: sometimes you gotta watch your own back
xkangthomas: yeahh...
xkangthomas: do you trust your friends?
daniel: i guess. you?
xkangthomas: yeah . duh
xkangthomas: yep. well, i like to think so
xkangthomas: well just a few
xkangthomas: thats wahat friends are for? right?
daniel: oohh k
daniel: haha then do you trust yourself?
xkangthomas: uhmm i guess?
xkangthomas: idk sometimes i suppose..?
daniel: how can you trust your friends, when you cant even trust yourself?
xkangthomas: umm theyre my friends?
xkangthomas: well.
xkangthomas: idk.

-thomas

nice weather

today :)

hmm.. so i fell asleep at around 6 AM ish haha x]
and woke up again at 9 oclock to get ready to go to chris's church, but our ride couldnt pick us up so i just fell back asleep.Woke up again at 2 oclock.

hmm spent most of the day just kickin it with kanow and teng. Movie, pizza, jaccuzzi. After driving kanow home me and cteng watched "shes the man" because i was so "great"

last night of freedom. hmm wat to do. wat to do.

-thomas

coffee house

day one of parents out of town.

drove to christina's house at 2 30ish. watched movie, ate burritos and chips :). drove to my place, then to the park, then to my place again. ( alot of driving) at my place watched " the Ringer." Christina made me an egg sandwich :0 then went to christina's church.

Coffee house: watched alot of perfomances, drank ALOT of rootbeer. It was fun. :)

edwin dropped me and kanow off. House is pretty lonely at night :(

-thomas

quote of the day

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth.”

— Benjamin Disraeli

-thomas kang

this weekend

parents and bro leaving to go on a rv trip. i wanted to stay home. so open pad this weekend! car this weekend!!!

dang itll be lonely at night tho, anyone wanna sleep over? :D

-thomas

way to tireeed

to be dealin' with all this shieeet.

what a craap day.
beastlee, hope you feelin' better,
was kinda' lost without you today (:
i'm here if you need me, you know that.
PHONE CALL AWAY!

how many times can you fuck up.
seriously, get it together before you hurt someone else.

-kanow

rbc team

Dang we shouldv won that game :o. I kept slipping and sliding, and i didnt get any passes :(. ahh it was only one loss :P we will win the next game fosho.

but we wouldve won, if SOMEBODY had decided to show up to cheer for me >:) you better come next game this friday, outside courts, be there. or be square. :]

s s s s s s s s s see yah.

-thomas

What's ganna' happen?

it's a question that runs through my mind a lot.
usually i think of the worst, but hopefully it won't be.
tryin' to get some priories straight.
the school years comin' to an end and i got a lot of
catchin' up to do plus a whole mess of things on my mind.
i'm seriously prayin' for the best.

today i talked to a friend i haven't been talkin' to lately.
did lots of catchin' up, and it felt really nicee.
updated him on what's been goin' on in my lifee.
after he made a whole mess of mean comments -.-
goodluck with your "plan". LOL

YOU KNOW WE LOVE YOU.
haha, no doubt about that.
here for you in a heartbeat.
not much to say here, but your someone i can and do go to
when i need a shoulder to cry on.
man, you've been there for me when i just wanted to vent everything out,
or just wanted to cry without havin' any questions asked.
it's a two way deal (:
don't hesitate :]

" & in all this chaos
we somehow found safety. "

LOVE kanow.

ohh whuutt

dear kanow and jessica

Thanks for making my day homos! :) Totally unexpected visit with bombass brownies, just what i like :). thank you

love thomas

staying home.

i dropped out of school, im starting homeschooling now..HAHA JYEAHH JK

its ok kanow! who blogs anymore anyways right? I do D:

pretty bored. Im sick so im staying home today. I wonder how things will be from now on x.x. hmm not sure, but my gut is telling me things will be fine :) Although things didnt go as smoothly as planned, and ive lost alot of things while traveling on this road, and that person might be mucho awkward to me. Things are going to A OK. :)

ima go download some new music for my EYEPOD. peace

-thomas

promises that can't be kept,

shouldn't be made in the first place.

gaah, sorry thomas, i haven't blogged in awhile.
this place feels so dead, no ones into it anymore.
i feel like it's not the only thing that's dying out..

uhh recap of last week.
i guess i'll start with saturday.
woke up to play some tennis with jliu, thomas, wes, beast, and adam.
it was pretty fuuun, hit for awhile then played some bball in the sun!
thomas wes and me owned up adam's lame team. (:
then went to adams to chill, played some games..
eric came and the guys started to play some intense halo.. it was pretty scary.
i don't really remember sunday, just that i slept alot.

so i came home today and two of my brothers friends were waitin' outside.
tim&eric. soo i let them in and we ate food and talked. then my brother came
down and yelled at me for lettin' them in -_-
today was really borin' at school, bleh, it was to hot for tennis.

" you say go slow,
i fall behind " -quietdrive

-kanow.

gawsh

where's kanow its so lonely in here T.T

i think making a blog where only i can read is really helpful. O and to danchan my #1 fan. Thinks my blogs are more interesting then newspapers. thanks wierdo :D

-thomas

breakthrough

jesus
plays a bigger role in my life than i ever thought He would. Today church was deader than i can remember, I havent been to church for about a month or two. As soon as i walked in i sat down while everyone remained standing and worshipped. I prayed, the most desperate and serious prayer i have ever conjured. That moment, i prayed with all of the emotions i had welled up inside and each word i repeated with such a depth that magnified and reassured that everything would be fine. Being in this.. house, brought to me peace of mind. It took problems that had been bothering me and broke it down, i can see, everything doesnt have to be as complicated as it seems. I really made a breakthrough today.
I accept my impurities, i cant say i dont care about anything anymore.. but im prepared to face it and come out on top.
i am at peace.

Sin has lost its power,
death has lost its sting.
From the grave you've risen
victoriously.

Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame.
By the cross you are the truth,
You are the life, you are the way.

My dead heart now is beating,
My deepest stains now clean.
Your breath fills up my lungs.
Now I'm free. now I'm free!

Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that i have found.
Oh the marvelous light
Marvelous light

-thomas

nap

wow such a long nap, ill probably be awake pretty late tonight.

Well...
im sure ive gone past the point of no return. i remember when we were just close friends, things were all good in the neighborhood, we never had second thoughts. we would joke around and none of us ever took it seriously, everything ended up with a good laugh. But ever since that ended and we became more then that, i have to say it was pretty cool. It felt like it was ment to be, we were already close friends and nothing would ever come between us because we already have such a strong bond. Now i realise its not like that. A fear, that i could lose you, totally killed it. My attempts to become a better man to you than a friend, was accually killing it.
whatever's coming, whether it be good or bad. i think im ready for it.

-thomas

workout!

today. Woke up SOO EARLY. 9oclock! dammn!! to get to rowland park to play bball with the team. When i got there NO ONE WAS THERE, turns out change of plans everyone bailed out. So i met jliu, jess, and kanow to play tennis. We played at school because the tennis courts in rowland park were packed. Met up with adam and wesley, played some tennis. Then played some basketball in the intense heat! While we were playing jennifer "accidently" touched something. you so dirty jliu! haha jk i know it was an accident.. right?? o.o haha. Went to adam's place later and played guitar hero for like hours.... and then owned up on xbox live halo :)
Some guy we were playing with thought kanow was a dike.. HAHAHAHAHA he wanted to go out with her... HAHAHWLSOLOLAHAHA.
Stayed till about 4 oclock, Jess's mom dropped me off. My mom's throwing a party downstairs with bunch of people. Im just stayin upstairs, i dont like it when there's too much people.

that's today

-thomas

ending

pretty good ending to a not so pretty day.

yup, so on friday night.
I chatted with edward and adam about problems and about life, we all had nothing to do. (we were losers) Ed tells me that he was home alone and had a car so me, him and adam hit denny's. So bomb it was soooo gooood T.T i wish i was hungry again so it would sound good right now, but im so full i dont want it.
As soon as ed dropped me off at home, me and jliu take a walk into the vantage pointe view. It was awesome, especcially at 12AM. You could see the citylights begin to gradually dim as the midnight fog set in, it was cool. We talked for about an hourish. There was a cop that parked right in front of us, we had to sneak all the way around behind the bushes to get away. We literally had to crawl on our hands. Then when we were in the clear we sprinted home. :o
pretty action packed, right??!

thanks :)

-thomas

weeeeeeek

was crap.

just got back from chris's church a few minutes ago.
it was pretty fun, i really like it there (:
umm, weeks been watever, really hate school.
grades are closin' and i'm diein' in a few classes.
bleeeh, tennis in the mornin'
i'm ouuut

-kanow

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fuck you

these days

hey! this is blog #101, woot woot ^^

today after i left the track, hung around to wait for grace to get out of class. Then me, julie, grace got a ride from some guy i never seen in my life. Went to julie's chilled, napped, ate. Went to mcDee's with janice and julie to get some iced coffee. Julie's mom walked in on me while i was changing. It looked like i was putting my pants back on and julie was in the room. i hope she didnt think anything.. o.o

these days, are so... out of the ordinary. i dont know how to explain.

-thomas

drained

dead from practice today.
feet hurt like HELL.
ran hella' looot, then stayed and played for a few hours.
my partners back! soo that's good.

man, i don't even want to think anymore.
exhausted from puttin' so much effort and energy
into things that don't matter.
feelin' pretty empty.

now ima' go write a stupid essay -_-
all nighter?
BLEH. tired enough as it is.

"A little memory loss is good for the soul"
-kanow

um,

yeah.

another watever day. tennis practice is startin' to get
intense again. feeet hurt, back hurts tooo. took some meds.
went to prc afterschool with erin and beast. i have no idea
what i'm writtin' about. LOL.

feeelin' us drift.
just know i'm here?


-kanow

doesn't bloggin' seem pointless these days?

" there's NOTHIN' wrong with comin' to a deadend."

haha. felt like startin' out with the quote today.
soo lemme recap the last few days.

FRIDAY: freakin' pointless day. hung out at eric's with adam, ed,
jess, kat, then the girls went to kat's to change. um, went back to school
sat around, then lanny and his friend came. dragged the guys outta'
eric's and did nothin' for awhile. ed and eric went back, and the rest of
us went to dolphin bay. bleeeh, shoulda' went to chris's church!
feels like whenever we all make plans, it never works out.
oh and walked around the tennis courts at night with ed, kat and jess.
haha, memories started flowin' in, talked about a few things with jess.
highlight of my friday. LOL.

SATURDAY: grounded. so it was a crap day -_-
failed to play tennis, mom was bein' a BITCH.

SUNDAY: went to grandma's really early in the mornin'. saw my uncle
that i haven't seen in a long ass time! <3 had a long talk with him.
he was tellin' me about different ways i could sue the school. LOL.
theeen we talked about college, then life in general. theeen drove back
homee and sat around, waitin' to go out to eat with family. bleh.

school tomorrow. -_-
i use to actually like school, but now i'm just
countin' down the days. i can't wait for this month to end.

kanow.

this weekend

hmm. dont really remember.... oh

friday: uhmmm.... after school there was no track practice so i just went home, phillip kicked it at my house for a bit. Then at like 8ish went out with julie to get her slippers and watch X-men Origins. Came back to julie's at like 10 30 and stuffed myself :o. stayed till like 12:20. :)<3

saturday: DANG im losing my memory!! uhmm hmm. o, woke up at like 12, so i was too late to join the guys up at rowland park. stayed home all day till 6. Where i met up with Geoff for old times sake and his buddies to eat some krn bbq. Met some new people, (note: white boys cant cook korean bbq.) AFter stuffing myself got picked up by my dad and went to julie's. Followed her, janice, and perla to buy something. stayed till 11 30? :)<3

today: mothersday. bought some flowers and went to rosehills to visit my grandma's grave. Crowded as hell, alot of people visiting their dead mothers i guess. Went to l.a and ate some bombass sushi at a bombass sushi bar. :D then came home and took a nap.

-thomas

bad vibes,

pretty bad day.
bleh, and to top it off it was flippin' hot.
stayin' up late today, sadly -_-


"if everyone got a happy endin',
they wouldn't mean so much."-JAMES.

-kanow

omg!

ap test tomorrow.
today, was hot. I was stuck at the track meet in black jeans until delia lended me her shorts. You're a life saver! After the meet, went to julie's house, her mom & aunt said i was pretty.

I should be cramming, gtg.

-thomas

buhbuhbuh bye track season

todays ch5 news:
+ i did not make track finals, so my track season is over
+ today was hot and so will tmrw
+ prom is in a week
+ ran to dolphin bay with christinaaa teeengg
+ boba is disgusting
+ apush test is on friday
+ im in love with julie shin
tune in next time.

" An eye for an eye, turns the whole world blind."

-thomas

THOMAS KANG.

I WAS KIDDIN' (:
you know i love you blog buddiee! :O
I CHEERED FOR YOU.
hehe, hope you made finals! (:

weeks been watever.
prelims was fuun to watch!
congrats homos for doin' good! :D
um, today me and beastlee had to go watch the
softball game for a bit. it was weird. LOL
haaad so many test today, bombed the bio test -_-
wow, i have nothin' to write about!
so i'm out! gotta' memorize some stupid passage for english -_-

have no idea what i'm doin'
just goin' with everything as it comes.
worryin' what's ganna' happen.
hopin' for the best.

"stayin' conscious enough just to hit replay" - drift away

-kanooow.

track prelims

so today was track prelims.

i did good on the hurdles: 44 secs, 2 second PR! but i still came in 6th/8. crazy competition!

nicole has no respect for my PR >:( i'd like to see you try, if you can even see past the hurdles! HAHA jk

"NOT" -borat

-thomas

ADAM

REALLY SUCKS AT SINGIN'
he is a tone deaf homo.

good weekend.

YESTERDAY: picked up beastlee and took her to this
flower shop to buy this mothers day thingy. then went to
adam's for like 5 seconds. went inside his house and it
was pretty boring so we left and went out to eat at hanasima.
called eddie up and we went to his house. i LET him win in chess.
we sang karaoke, me and jess got a 92 on "if i were a boy"
he is the biggest cheater in battle ship. -_- ate at his house, watched a
movie, went home and crashed.

TODAY: woke up at freakin 830 cus i thought i was ganna' play tennis
and run with beastlee&ed, BUT ED DIDN'T WAKE UP. but he texted me
later on and i went to his house for BBQ. omg , i'm so fat, second BBQ
of the week. -_- played some volleyball, one on one bball with tomtom.
I SO WON. finished Bride Wars (: then went home to watch Taking 5.
it was so lame, but the lead singer was hot. on phone with adam now so later!

SO THEN. thanks bestie for that support.
and i am so not toned deaf (: hehehe
thanks for gettin' me into church and worship and
all that good stuff (: and yeah, i'll be prayin' for the
best, no doubt about that. and no matter what happens,
i know i have you there for me.

"kidnap my heart, take me with you" -Taking 5

-kanow

ugh

need to studyo, no more playing around starting now

-thomas

the odyssey

After i came back from saturday detention, i had some tacobell: 3 soft tacos.

At around 2 oclock my mom, dad, and bro went to temecula, leaving me home alone all day till 10 ish. Jliu came over around 4ish cuz we were both home alone and she needed help on her odyssey project. I drew some pictures and wrote some of her "Ships Log." I tryed to make scrambled eggs but failed, i made her eat all of my failures. Soon got bored so i took the car out and we went to get some yogurt at Cefiore. (bcuz yogurt land has hard parking, and i was driving the damn jeep) The sherriffs office was right in front of the yogurt place, there were like police everwhererr. After we got some yogurt we drove to kanow's house to find edward having a complete makeover. nicole's mom was doing makeup on edward, it was super funny. Kanow's dad was acting a bit strange, calling me "sailor." After staying for a while, me and jliu drove back to my place cuz i didnt know what frsure what time my parents were coming back. When i got home i called my mom and turns out shes coming back at 10-11ish. Drank some soju, made jliu eat a spoon of WASABI for 5bucks, TRYED to drink raw eggs. So we continued to do the odyssey project and jliu is sitting right here watching 10 000 BC when she should be drawing her pictures! -.-

-thomas

saturday det

about to go to saturday detention, i think luna is running it today. fuck

-thomas

;

so i'm on the phone with adam and
he's a bitch -_- so meaaaaaan.

WED: kicked it with LJN2 minus truong.
pretty fuun. all we did was eat though, LOL.

THURS: hella' fuuun day (: except when i dropped my
book in the toilet so that was lameee LOL.
saw a familiar facee, so that
was pretty cool. did some catchin' up. (:
trackmeet was fun to watch.

FRI: went home early, mom was bitchin'. went to christina's
bbq thingy after at 6ish. it was REALLY fuun ;D
met some new people, worshiped, played games with little kids.
thanks for bringin' me and jess, really needed it.

so i listened to my mom yell at my brother that he never listens.
i wonder when she'll notice that she's the one that never listens.
so it kinda' feels like things are cavin' in again.
ugh, sometimes i wish things could be easy,
that way there'd be nothin' to stress about.
hopin' for the best.

"your world may shake, but you should never falter" - james
-kanow

Rowland vs. Walnut track

WE lost. our winning streak is now grinded to dust.

110 HH: 17 secs. nice PR :)
triple jump: scratch, was too tired :(
300 Hurdles: 46 sec.

i guess its safe to say now that jumps WERE my main events last year, but my main event THIS year is hurdles.

AFter the track meet ended me, jennifer, kevin, phillip, and david went to jamba juice and chipotle!! first time, have to say it really satisfied. We had alot of laughs, it was muy funn :).

-thomas

stuffed!

panda express yum :)

Took the practice Ap test in 3rd period today. I'm pretty sure i did bad on the multiple choice, but i did alright on the FRQ. :) gahh the test is next week!!!

Tomorrow's the Walnut meet. I will definetly PR, ive been jumpin, hurdlin much better lately, i feel so relieved ever since my muscle pull dissapeared. I VALUE STRETCHING NOW!

hmm yeah. g'day

"to be loved, what more could you ask for?" - the academy is

-thomas

bleeh,

so tired, i didn't even do anything today.
buut today was a pretty good day actually (:
stayin' up tonight to study -____-

um, yeah.
i don't know what you want me to say :I
hopefully things clear up for you.

"she doesn't believe in love,
but he's determined to call her bluff"
-all time low

-kanow

super tiring

practice today. Today was just an average day; breezy weather, boring classes, school is so stupid. Ate some Curry House and some froyo. Gah so tired.

after a phone call,
Ima go to bed early x___x

-thomas

glass wall

so my brother showed me this a while back.
i just never had the time to post it.
it's cute, watch it to the end (:

super tired.

soo i stayed up on the phone with
the ugly, retarded adam till 4 last night(:
hahaha it was pretty fun, talked about the
most random things.
christina watched boys before flowers till who knows when -_-
she thinks the curly hair guy is hot, WHICH HE IS NOT (:
ANYWAYS. good weekend.
got lots of things done.


when you accuse someone, make sure you have FACTS.
thanks a lot, tells me so much about our friendship -.-
doesn't really bother me, because i know i didn't do it.

"we listen to the voices
but it's the choices
that make us who we are"

-kanow

so im talking

to julie on the phone, about absolutely nothing.

today:
study
dota
pokemon
tv
phone

-thomas

normal saturday

hmm. Spent most of today cramming for the ap exam. Then went to the choi's at around 5:30 where i hung out with ed, kanow, perla, julie, janice.
Ed, kanow, janice and me finished the rest of Marley and Me. When we finished we didnt have anything to do so we went to the video store to pick up another movie. Except we had no ride so we walked there. Royce's little brother kept poking my back, so we had a small ninja fight ( i was victorious of course). I wanted to rent Hot fuzz but we ended up getting STEPBROTHERS. gay. It was an alright movie i guess. had some laughs. Playing Pokemon! My current team: torterra, blastoise, magmortar, electivire, scizor, giratina. Yes i am a loser :)

-thomas

steady hands please take the wheel.

wow i didn't turn the computer on once this week (:
well, i'm way to lazy to write about everyday so ima'
summarize. this week was a GREAT week! except the fact
that i failed the math cst -_- um, played some A game tennis on
wed with my coach, justin and kevin! played for like three hours (:
went to thomas's house monday after school to "swim". thursday went
to prc with the freshies finally (: yesterday jess came over and we justed
talked about alot of things, it was really fun (: then we went to souplantation and
jess had a obsession with all the lemon foods -_- lemon salad, lemon soup, lemon
pasta, lemon muffins -____- LOL today i woke up and my coach called me and told
me justin&kevin wanted me to go over and rally with them so i did for like 2 hours.
worked on my backhand, thanks justin&kevin(: theen thomas texted me to go over to
ed's, so i did. we ate and walked to the video store to rent a movie, the usual. it was fun (:
tomorrow's asb bondin'! lookin' forward to it ;D

SOOO. feeelin' good.
but still, sometimes i wish there was someone to point me in
the right direction to go.
worried for a few poeple, but things are lookin' pretty good right now.
just goin' with the flooow (:

"I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar,
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire,
I've never lit a match, with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames, are getting out of control."
-all time low

-kanow

this week

wass pretty crazzzy!
naahh not really. Boring CST all week. i wish i was a senior... senior week! AAhh well next year :).

Played Egyptian war today in math class. I WAS OWNING. I slapped the cards soo fast, i think it was because i was extra twitchy today bcuz i was as happy as "two bugs in a rug." ( i got that from some mood testing thing) Accually enjoyed jump practice today. got a kudos from luna, luna, LUNA. I was pretty suprised, and also happy on the inside. He always makes fun of me, it was different to recieve a compliment. After track, i hung out with adam, theo, chris, ed, sarah, danny, & <3. PLayed knockout, very racist version. got owned in halo by adam, and watched part of "DONT MESS WITH the ZOHAN." that movie is hIIIILLLARRIOUS i recommend :).

things are on the high, except my grades :( Gotta start working my butt off for upcoming tests.

-thomas

rowland vs. south hills ttrack

Yeah.
BV: win
GV: lose
Frosh: win

ended up with 35ft on the triple -.- and PR 46sec on the 300 hurdles :).
Today woke up extra early because i thought making canned soup would take a while. In fact it only took about 5mins. I spent most of the morning trying to find out how to heat it up .-.- Gave soup, sleeping thing, and a cookie to julie. Hoped she liked. Snuck the car out at 9 oclock last night. hehe there were like 2 cops, i was pretty paranoid. Drove down to staterbrothers to buy 2 cans of chicken soup because julie wasnt feeling too good. And bought some milanos for her too, milk chocolate :D yumm. After i came out, my mom found out and called me to yell at me a bit. She was mad for about 5mins then forgot about it cuz i went out to buy soup for someone sick. There was a rite aid next door so i went inside because i remember i was talking to her about how she had sleeping problems, and that i told her i would buy her one of those sleeping masks. After that i came home, studied for the AP test, made julie go to sleep, then knocked out right after that. I had a dream but i forgot, i was at the beach, and everyone was at war. I dont remember the people, but i remember i was allied with every group and i was a super secret double double double agent. wierd haha.

I've decided to stop caring so much, it just makes things worse.

-thomas

cooler today

The temperature is going down, hoorah.

After school today went to Michael's with kevin, phillip, and jliu. Bought supplies for Kevin's thing. Stopped by 7ll on the way back home. When i got home, no one was there! so i sad on my steps for about 15mins until my mom finally came.

Was talkin with jliu and phillip today at the track. Something phill said made me realise. He's right and it shouldn't even be an issue anymore. So screw it, im over it.

I feel like such a loser, i blog like EVERYDAY. teeheehee.

-thomas

drained

wow..its pretty hot.
the state test thing was freakin boring. i fell asleep a couple of times reading the exerpt about George Washington and the "Worker's Health Rights" thing. i finished in about 40 mins? and fell asleep the rest of the period.

Dangit i have Saturday school on May 2nd for ditching practice ( honestly, it was kinda worth it) but still! FUcckkk :[

Track was soo tiring D: it was mostly the weather haha. Ran the 300s and did the jumping thing. Got it in one try even though i didnt practice it over spring break :). I was like saying random stuff and slurring my speech the whole practice, i felt light headed x.x GAhh. When practice ended i was so happy. Hallelujah. Sun was still blazin. Saw julie for about 2 minutes, yay LOL.

the end

p.s thx for the sllurpee julie :)

-thomas

four twenty

Assumably, Hitler's birthday, the day everyone becomes a pothead, the day me and julie became "officiall" :) aka 4-20. AHHHAA to start off the day, I wake up at 5: 15. It was wierd because for some reason i wasnt tired at all. BTW julie you owe me ice cream, i like vanilla, just for the note. :) Got to school around 5:45ish. Ed and I spent the whole morning helping Jess and lyd post up their flyers and posters for ASB elections.

So fast forward to 7th perioddd... blooosijdsafpszzzz..ed and i ditched practice because it was insanely hot. LIKE HOT HOT HOT. HOT We ( jess,kanow,ed,janice,julie,me) ended up swimming at my place. me and ed swam in our speedos cuz we're cool like that, and to work on our tan. We swam, attempted to teach janice how to dive (but failed), played monkey in the middle, played truth or dare, & ate pizza. O and i got some clothes JACKED hahah jk. My closet got raided, they took my clothes.

they went home at around 7:20?

i like this one.

YES i just noticed, my groine pull is gone :). now i can accually run, jump, and hurdle again :)

-thomas

spring break conclusion

hey, this spring break was pretty aite. I think its safe to say i tryed to cram as much as i can in this one little week. Hmmm, well the very first day of the break (saturday), i have to say honestly, was fuckin bullshit. Just terrible :/. But hey, it got better the next day, accually WAAYY HAYYY HAYYYYYY better. (notice the emphasis on the "way") Well I spent most of the break goin out, didnt really study muchh, darnnn..... jyeahh roiiight. haha! but yeah i gotta start thinking about my future, im starting to feel a bit left behind when it comes to planning my life and being set on my carreer and all that whatnot. ANYWAYS i watched movies, stayed out late, chilled at houses, hung out with julie, totally ditched practice, went to the beach :), blah blah etc etc. Now that i think about it... i spent 5/7 of my spring break days with her. i hope im not too clingy. sooowrrryy, i cant help it yah know? >:P End of spring break.. aww mann. This is when school gets serious. Finals, ap tests, graduation. Everything and everyone is growing older, times are changing, alot of things are changing, everyone seems to be moving away these days.

damn... life goes on. cheerio g' day.

-thomas

you know what? :)

i dont know. Maybe im just crazy but, being with the one i love is enough to make my day no matter how bad it may be. I dont know about some people, but thats just me. Because of you my days dont end up being just a "whatever/boring day." I'm sorry if thats really all i can offer.

-thomas

IMPACT

so i came across this question when i was doin' a survey on myspace. here it goes. (:

Who are five people you have met this year that has made the greatest impact on your life?
1. eddieGAYchoi- life seems black&white without him. he's the one guy i can count on to make me smile. he's my brother, and i really love him. we've been through quite alot together even though we've known each other for a few months, and i hope there's more to come. i want you to know, i'm countin' on this friendship lastin' for quite a while (: i give you so much shiet, i don't know how you put up with me. LOL. even when he's down in the dumps, he finds a way to make everyone laugh. maybe it's just his ugly face. who knows (:
2. thomASSkang- soo we started from scratch and we became best friends in the end. i absolutely love this guy. he;s a freakin' fattie, but he shares (: when i first met him, i had no idea we'd become this close, but i'm glad we have. you always seem to know what to say. he's the one i go to when i feel the need to vent, and he's the one i go to when i need to cry., he's the one i go to when i just want to stand next to someone, thanks tom tom ;D
3. BEASTlee- i didn't meet you this year, but i started to talk to you this year. god you follow me around to much, but eh, i love you enough to let you.LOL. i don't want to write gushy stuff about you.. just know i'm here through thick and thin, but you already know that. i want you to be a friend i keep even after highschool.
4. adamF- hahahahahahahahha. you are so ugly, but it's okie you're my ugly.
E><3,weell, when did we start to talk so much? hangin' out with you is always fuuun! it's thanks to you that i met ed, and thomas, and eric, and those other homos we call our second fam (: i still think you're a FAG :D i say that with all the love in the world. you make fun of me to much -_- i swear one day i'll get you back.. ehhe well thanks for all the advice you've givin' me, and just bein' there.
LOVE YOU UGLY FAG USED TISSUE DRUGGIE E><3
5. lamesauce-mhm, you've probably made the biggest impact in my life, well, maybe after eddie. you taught me alot, and i've become stronger after all we've been through. ima' be turin' to you for advice, and you can turn to me anytime you want. gah, there's alot i want to write, but i feel no need to cus you should already know. your stupid metaphors are so lame. in fact, you're lame, i mean even your name is lame.

TODAY: kicked it with adam,ed,thomas,julie,beastlee,phil,eric. haha, it was pretty lame. the AMC workers kept faollowin' us around, and it turned into a big mess -_- weeell, we watched 17 again and it was goood (: ZAC IS JUST TO HOT. hehehehhe walked around the mall, ateee, watched phil&ed ask girls for there number sayin' it was for adam. LOL. we love you adam (: played dress up with phil, ed, and adam. it was fuuuuun (: walked around a little more, bumped into some old friends. said byeee, and phil to me home with ed, julie, and thomas. thanks phil (: hahah.
overall good day? i don't know. :I

"lifes to short to dwell on all that's wrong" - Neyo

-kanow

spring break V

season finale.

Yesterday:
Went to palmsprings. Boring as hell, there was no one to talk to. I just played with my ds and swam for bout an hour or two. Ate some bbq, swam again at around 10. texted julie till i fell asleep. (p.s i hate hotel sheets) Checked out the next day.

2day:
Stopped by the Palm Springs outlet on the way home. Ate pretzels. Hot as hell. Bought nothing. Then i got dropped off at the mall where i met phill, ed, nicole, jess, eric, adam, nd julie. At the theatre, it was fuckin gayyy. I ended up having to buy two tickets. Watched 17 again, pretty aite movie. Ate some food, watched ppl play dress up. leftmall and came home.

my eyes burn T.T

-thomas

livin' that good life (:

YESTERDAY: super fail -.- went to prc with
erin,cindy,kelley,and beast but it was closed.
wow how dumb LOL
anyways i went to tennis like 30min early and
thankfully kevin and justin were there (:
gotta' rally with them, then had lessons!
i think i did better, but i'm not as into it anymore.
gotta; get my head back in the game (: played a doubles
match me&justin against coach&kevin. we LOST cus justin
is the biggest ball hog ever -.- rallied with them for another hour
then went home. thanks justin&kevin for help on my serve (:
lookin' forward to seein' those two next wed! oh and i played
blockes till 1 with a lame cheater. (:

TODAY: was the best day i've had so far this week. kicked it
with jamie&thomas (: had our GIRLS day out. watched fast and
furoius in theaters then walked around like idiots. played dress up
with jamie at forever 21 (: that was super. haha. theeen we just walked
and walked and walked. after, jamie's brother took us to ed's! haven't seen
him since friday soo that was really fun. watched a movie there, ate dinner, then
OWNED ed at battle ship and chess. i'm so good ;D hehe JK ed's just dumb.
when ed walked me home we had a nice talk about everything. mhm, i feel
better than i did before. i feel like there's almost nothin' to worry about anymore,
no more doubt or confusion. there's just oneee thing on my mind lately.

SO tomorrow i was suppose to kick it with LJNsquared but truong can't
make it so it's been moved to sunday. 17 again this saturday?!
PHIL YOU BETTER COME. (:
weeell, time to blockle LOL. lateeeers!

" time heals everything, that's a fact " - J.C.
-kanow

spring break IV

I woke up to the sound of screaming 4th graders, tripping over their own feet just outside my door. Taylor and his little friends were having a "playdate" but all they did was torture my dog, ransack my room, and drool on my xbox controllers. -__- Haha but they are fun to manipulate. If i tell em ill let them play halo 3 they'll do anything ( get me food, clean my room, do pushups) LOL.
Well anyways, picked up kanow and jamie at round 1ish to watch Fast & Furious 4. ehh, not what i expected but still was a good movie, i give it a 3/5. Bought a shirt and shorts, watched kanow trip on the escalator, walked around, ate icecream, walked around, tryed to get to barnes and nobles, walked around. Long story short, we had nothing to do. We ended up going to the choi's, like always. hehe :) I Looked through guiness book of world records, some old yearbooks, ate some pasta, and had ___ ______ practice. HAHA julieee :)

going to shower, later!

-thomas

spring break III

well, when i woke up i didnt feel like working today so i skipped practice... again.

today went to brea mall at around 11ish? i walked around looking for a new beanie because my dad or my brother always took mine and i never saw it again. I walked around the whole mall, went to Lids, Vans, beachworks, etc. Couldnt find the right one. Was looking for a brown, black, or navy sock cap, but failed :[. awwwell

After ate at some italian restaraunt. Then mom dropped me off at home and took bro to celo practice. At home played pokemon and watched tv. Then get picked up by julie and edward at around 5 and stay till about 10. We ate krn bbq and watched pokemon because i missed playing it, hehe.

going on a 2 day trip to palm springs on friday. bleh

-thomas

spring break II

Today was the first day of "track practice." cough cough* :D

Well, chill day.
1. overslept
2. had denny's breakfast w/ julie.
3. almost died on the way back
4. chilled at adam's with theo, adam, julie, tanizzle, and ed.
5. fell asleep on adam's couch
6. went home.
7. Ate at new garden.
8. breamall
9. home

-thomas

spring break I ,offishal

start to spring break. :)

hmm well, simply today was boring, relaxing, embarrassing x.x, and overall a chill day. Started off waking up at around 11 o' clock to the sound of the moving van and the handymen moving the furniture out. My grandparents are moving back to Korea PERMANENTLY this month, kinda sad ill miss em.
ummm.. then me, grandparents, and brother went to the sauna. I figured i should go since i wouldnt be seeing them for a while, maybe forever. ( i also didnt wanna stay home alone with my mom all day x.x) There i mostly took naps and sweated hehe. When we were leaving IT HAPPENED. I cant say it. Only a few know because its that nasty and embarrassing -.- I'll just say i lost conciousness for a few seconds and leave it at that. o btw i stayed there for 7 hours..

After, i asked my mom if i could go to the choi's house. There we watched some old boys over flowers junk. Its fun to make fun of the people in there. But i have to admit EVERYONE in that show is pretty, even the boys hahaha. no homo. Ate some nasty oranges (more like orange grapes), had a wrestling match with Julie ;), did some stuff, came home, had a 5minute convo with julie on the phone, talking to kanow.

and thats my day.

-thomas

!@#$%

get your facts straight before you go
spreadin' shieeet to the world. -.-

seriously, just wow.
excuse me if i'm bein' forward but
you're the one who made the decision.
not me.


-kanow.

better today

by ne-yo (:
loveee that song.

hm breaks been fun so far, feels nice to just kick back.
today was borin' till james stopped by after school.
hehe he brought starbucks (:
forced him to watch boys before flowers (:
but i couldn't hear any of it cus he wouldn't shut up
about how ugly the actors were. -.- stupid james.

still think he's ugly?! he's hotter than you (:
thanks for today, really needed it.
you douche bag (:

feels like i haven't blogged in forever.
ima' start up again
there's somethings i'm still thinkin' about
buut lettin' it go for now.
tryin' to focus on my priorities.
somethin' i really have to straighten out.

" no one can diminish you but yourself"

-kanow

boom boom pow

is getting a bit annoying. They played it on the radio like 10 times today! hahaha

to start off. I went to church, today was Easter Sunday, which means closed stores, packed parks, and day of a lot of traffic. Church was especcially good because old friends that i havent seen for a while came! it was good catching up on old times hahaha. It felt like the church long ago, when everyone knew each other. After a long bible study, Brandon and I got some ice cream from an icecream truck parked in front of the church. Then walked to his pad and talked about some suprising yet nasty yet funny yet awesome stories on the way. We met up with Phillip and James to pick up Aileen for the beach trip today. I totally failed today at Subway -_______- I ordered a 6inch sandwich that costed me $6 when i could've just did the "5 dollar foot long deal" and gotten a footlong sandwich for $5!!! GAHHH Aileen wouldnt stop calling me a dumbass for a while -.- After we picked up a football because a football is ESSENTIAL for any beach trip. then swung by my house to change and pick up some water.

So us 5, me, phillip, brandon, james, and aileen went to huntington beach. First we boogieboarded, DAMN it was fuuureeezinnnng colllllddd, but we got used to it from all the effort put into swimming against the wave and being knocked down. Then we played 2 on 3 tackle football. The teams were me and james vs phillip, ho, and aileen. Even though we all got bruises and burns (except aileen) it was fun as hell. In the end me and james won due to our excellent strategic plays and coordinating teamwork. We definately need more people next time.

On our way back we bought some drinks at Jamba Juice. I ordered the Strawberry Wild, it was amazingly good. Strawberry goodness flaring in my tastebuds, i shouldve ordered the bigger size. We took the drinks on the road and dropped off aileen at her boyfriends house. Then after dropping off james and brandon, Phillip and I went to the choi residence where i met ed, janice, grace, and julie:). hehehehe ^^ Julie and I had some heart-to-heart talk, im glad we did. And then watched Norbit. After we left their house me and phillip went to yogurt land to have some latenight yogurt. well im not going to write the rest i think this blog is long enough already :)

BEACH TRIP 4-12

LOL

-thomas

adam sorry; i just

left like that. Im sorry i just showed up at all, all i did was drag the mood down.

I guess this really is my last chance. I'm.. no good for you. I know your tired of hearing this word.. So ill just say it once, sorry. For dragging you down with me. For letting my jealousy take over. For everything i put you through, i just dont feel like arguing anymore and explaining myself. Im just going to say i broke my promise to be a better man, honestly i did try and i thought i could overcome it myself, but i failed, so once again.. im sorry. But ive been willing to change in a split second for you, would you have done the same? are you willing to change for someone other than yourself. i dont know how we are at this point, if you don't ever wanna talk to me again id understand.

when i got picked up by BOTH my mom and dad. i put on a smile and told them i had a wonderful time. I just said " yes,no,it was good." but i really didnt wanna talk anymore, so i told em i was tired and i asked them if they could stop asking me so many questions. But my dad takes it the wrong way and starts yelling about how im a disobedient child and how he's been so patient with me. I WAS ALREADY FEELING LIKE SHIT, THANKS. without thinking i slam the door out , but then i quickly i say sorry because i know when my dad gets mad. and i guess this is the time when my eyes become red and warm tears start comin down from this and today's events. My dad hears this and sees my tears and immediately starts trash talking me the whole ride saying " YOU PATHETIC PUSSY, your of no use to me. you should be embarrrassed to be crying.etc etc" I just stay quiet, taking ever insult he dished out and took a looong shower when i get home trying to wash out the redness in my eyes, and release the rest of the emotions left. THEN its my mom's turn she comes into my room after the shower and gives me a guilt trip saying " is this really how you're going to behave, is this really all you can offer your parents when we take care of you and etc etc." greattt this day just gets better and better.

i just wanna.. stop everything. just stop time so i can take a breathe or two and get ready for the next problem.

-thomas

(almost) SPRING BREAK

HURRY UPPP. I HOPE THIS SPRING BREAK WILL BE A GOOD ONE.

today, hmmmm. I'll spare the details, longstory short, we swept Nogales.
After the track meet, we went to souplantation to eat dinner and do the fundraiser thing for jessica's somthing, i have no idea. IT WAS PACKED. we had to sit at seperate tables due to our group being so big.
TONIGHT, my partners in crime were adam,phillip,and steph teng. We sat at our little table jokin, laughin, talkin. It was a good meal with good company, lotsa laughs.
After the souplantation we walked to the mall. There we just chilled until it was time to go home. and now im home.

current Spring break to-do list :
-beach
- go to a theme park ( knotts, soakcity, disney, etc)
- chill with homies
- workout
- honestly cant think right now lol

-thomas

&

school.
hideout paintin'.
alvarado.
trackmeet.
souplantation.
mall.

bleh :/
baaaaad day.

"don't trip chocolate chip" -T.C.

-kanow

:D

swallow your pride, and accept defeat. i got pwned today :)

yessss. chem is getting so much easier i finish my hw in like 30 seconds! woot woot ^^

what's said is said, and what's done is done. Tomorow is another day and the present is now the past.

and tomorrow is looking good

-thomas

trust.

whatever.
ugh, sometimes you should keep your mouth shut.
i tell you things because i trust you, because your a bestie.
doesn't give you the right to tell anyone.
thanks. won't be hearin' from me anytime soon.


"don't let someone become a priority
when you're just an option."

-kanow

please

get your head in the gamee.




"with the hopes of reaching the moon,
men fail to see what blossoms at their feet."

-kanow

copied thomas (:

TEN HOW'S:
How did you get one of your scars?
burned by the curlin' iron :[

How did you spend your last Birthday?
haha with jess&tiff in vegas (:

How are you feeling at this moment?
tired, disappointed, watever.

How did your night go last night?
phoned with chris

How did you do in high school?
bad so far

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
best buddies!

How often do you see your best friend?
almost everyday

How much money did you spend last month?
too much :[

How old do you want to be when you get married?
when i'm ready, and he walks right by (:

How old will you be at your next birthday?
16

NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Betty. LOL it should be bitch -.-

What did you do last weekend?
i forgot ahah!

What is the most important part of your life?
those who take part in it (:

What would you rather be doing?
talkin' on the phone with someone! :O

What did you last cry over?
someone really lame.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
music.

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
that's a secret ;D

What are you worried about?
friends, a relationship, elections, gradeees.
THE BIO TEST TOMORROW :[

What did you have for breakfast?
HONEY NUT CHEERIOS (:

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
um, i think so?

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
uh,

Have you ever been out of the country?
mhm

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
LOL ;D

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
mhm..
not the best feelin' (:

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
LOL. naaahs
i'm a good girl (:

Have you ever read an entire book in a day?
yeessir!

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
brother

Who was the last person you texted?
thomas?

Who was the last person you hungout with?
thomaskang,edwardchoi,julieshin,erictan

Who was the last person to call you?
chris

Who did you last hug?
um, eric?

Who is the last person who texted you?
james.

SIX WHERE’S:
Where does your best friend live?
somewhere. AHHA (:

Where did you last go?
eric's

Where did you last hang out?
eric's hahha

Where do you go to school?
John A. Rowland High School

Where is your favorite place to be?
anywhere but heree.

Where did you sleep last night?
beed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
somewhat.

Do you think anyone likes you?
hm, i think

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
sometimes

Do you know the muffin man?
he's my bestfriend (:

Does the future scare you?
when i think about it to much

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
because i am.

Why did you get a myspace?
chris made it for me :[

Why did your parents give you the name middle you have?
i have no idea

Why are you doing this survey?
because theres nothin' better to do

THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
reaaad minds! cullen status ;D

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
i would. but i don't think it'd help much

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
i would bring everything in a packagee to goo! (:
i would try to stuff all those besties, but jess is kinda' fat and so is ed ! HAHA

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
hahaha. not at the moment

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
haha. why not? (:

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
not really.

sirvay

stolen from philandchristina.blogspot.com

TEN HOW'S:
How did you get one of your scars?
shot my leg with Phillip's bbgun

How did you spend your last Birthday?
hmm just chillin with the peepz :)

How are you feeling at this moment?
body aching, bored

How did your night go last night?
i played pokemon bfor i slept.

How did you do in high school?
uhh haha... :(

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
its a band shirt

How often do you see your best friend?
everday

How much money did you spend last month?
hmmm 100? i dont really remember :p

How old do you want to be when you get married?
when i meet THE smart,sexy,sweet girl

How old will you be at your next birthday?
18! :o

NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Kyong hee aka rosa

What did you do last weekend?
uhmm hangout, play tennis, hangout some more later.

What is the most important part of your life?
the ones in it

What would you rather be doing?
i want to swim :o

What did you last cry over?
watching Marley and Me made my eyes ALMOST water.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
someone who cares.

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
personalita looks contribute too sometimes ;)

What are you worried about?
hmmm

What did you have for breakfast?
fried rice

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
nope

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yep

Have you ever been out of the country?
korea, mexico

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
oooooyeeeeah -_____-

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
nah

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
whooa ;D

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yeah

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
dad

Who was the last person you texted?
janice?

Who was the last person you hungout with?
erictan,julie,kanow,ed,jtay.

Who was the last person to call you?
home

Who did you last hug?
julay

Who is the last person who texted you?
janice? same question?

SIX WHERE’S:
Where does your best friend live?
in row heights

Where did you last go?
the bathroom :o

Where did you last hang out?
eric tanizzle's cribizzle.

Where do you go to school?
Rowland High

Where is your favorite place to be?
anyplace as long as theres A/c and a couch

Where did you sleep last night?
room

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
yup

Do you think anyone likes you?
yeah, i think

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
nah

Do you know the muffin man?
i saw him in shrek 2

Does the future scare you?
responsibilities

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
o you know. no explanation needed

Why did you get a myspace?
sharon made me one

Why did your parents give you the name middle you have?
korean

Why are you doing this survey?
bcuz i dont feel like writing a REAL blog

THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
recently ive wanted to be able to change into any animal :o

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?i
nah what happened, happened no need to change it

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
a helecopter

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
no i wouldnt. -__-

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
of course.

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
unsatisfied, ask me again in 10 years

-thomas

we are the ordinary

hmm today was just an ordinary sunday. I went to church, freeloaded some samples at costco, lifted at 24 hour fitness.

Oh, i went to bestbuys today to use the $100 giftcard i received on my bday. i ended up buying:
+Marley and Me DVD
+ blue earphones
+ pokemon platinum

-thomas

tennis match at pathfinder

today, i woke up at 12 kinda aching everywhere from yesterday.

And so i met up with jliu to play tennis at pathfinder park. We walked there ahahha it was a long wallk. Once there we hit the ball a couple times and then we played 21. I think the score wassss 16-21? i lost :(. LOL Then after we walked back up the hugge hill. DAMN it was like... torture.. then we looked at the view and played some catch with the tennis ball. Then we went home haha. When i got home i was sooo hungry D:. i ate some jellybeans, chocolate, and some jajangmyun!! SOO BOMB.

even though it hurts my chest
ima spark till i lose my breathe
livin the sin since life begin
comin all way out the water takin oxygen
please Father help me breathe again
at ease again.

-thomas

sadie hawkins 2009

WHOOOAA FUN NIGHT FUN NIGHT

so after track i came home with julie and took a nap while julie made erics and nicoles shirts.
When i woke up i showed julie the view in vantage pointe. The view that i always go to when i have to think about somthing. It wasnt as cool though because it wasnt nighttime. When we came back home we went to kanows house and was in utter suprise once i went through the front door. Apparently, there were proffesional stylists that did jess,christina, nicoletroung,kanow, and jliu's hair/makeup. WHOA it was like, i was speechless. Everyone was beautiful AHEM AHEM* no, i really mean it. But i must agree with phillip, Jessica you looked gooood tonight

Soon after we met up with phillip and we went to erics place where we found theo, adam, eric, katherine, & danny there. We tottally FAIL at planning things btw. We went from guppyhouse to DOLPHIN BAY.
So when we came back from DB, we got ready to go into the gym to SADIES and get our groove on :D. At first it was really boring, because the dance just started and no one was dancing yet. I tryed to get julie to dance but unfortunately she wasnt "feeling it" LOL.
BUT as soon as more people started dancing IT WAS FrEAKIN AWESOME. we were bumpin, crumpin, grindin, windin, everything u can imagine LOL. Btw it was HOT on the dance floor iwas sweating like a mofo!! haha too much info sry. Yeah but it was a fun time. I think this is the best sadies ive been to :). 2009

-lightning bolt KAPWING

truth be told

haha wow i am soo gay, but i really wanted to post another one (:
soo i wanted to say some things to some people..

1) you are the dumbest shiet ever and you know it -.- no matter what
i say it doesn't go through your head, and i just hope you know what
you're doin'. please don't let your emotions take over, because you tend
to, think with your MIND. i've had my say in this already, but i know you
won't put what i said into consideration. i gotta' say, i'm worried.

2) friends aren't forever, but bestfriends are different. always here for you
and you know it (: don't sweat anything alrighty? make it worth what you lost.

3) over and over again? (: i feel like this time is different. "the right thing at the
wrong time is the wrong thing" soo we had that talk at lunch, before was the
wrong time, but is it the right time now? think things through and carefully.
don't be afraid to go for it because of what happened. just be prepared?
and my anologys are the best -.- HAHAHA.

4) hm, (: all goood?


-kanow

Dear Anoyomous,

So the most horrible month i've had so far is over
today was a really good day, i feel like things are back to the
way they use to be. just right. (: it's timee i blog about some
things i blanked out on before.

soo last month..
it was horrible, it was just a really stressful time.
things were just goin' from okie to bad to worse,
to just about horrible. i'm not shure how to put it
in words, but ima' do the best i can.
things started to fall apart mid feb but they really crashed
in march. it feels weird to have somethin' goin' so great,
fall apart. i don't really know what exactly happened, but i
do know i was at fault most of the time. i thought things ended on
the best note ever, but i was so wrong.
have you ever had the feelin' that someone you really cared about
slapped you in the face?
the feelin' sucks, but it happens. it caught me off guard. like a pop quiz,
i wasn't ready. but time wasn't goin' to wait for me, and it didn't.
i don't know, maybe it's wrong of me to feel this way, but i do.
i feel sort of betrayed in a way, and at that moment i didn't know what to say.
did you want me to lie? because i did. and i'm not sorry.
you told me it was "unfair", but honestly, is it?
have you looked at it from my point of view? i looked at it from yours.
i guess at one point i looked past it because i really care about you
whether you know it or not. and i'm really glad we're back to
where we were, really good friends? i want it to stay that way.
and as for everything else, i don't think it will ever be the same.
bestfriend isn't just a title, it has meanin', and you don't understand it.
maybe it's wrong of me, but i really don't care anymore.

but it's all over. i'm really glad i ended up where i did. (:
i don't know why, but i felt like bloggin' about it all one last time.

if i don't mind, it doesn't matter right?
"mind over matter"- james

-kanow