Dear Anoyomous,

So the most horrible month i've had so far is over
today was a really good day, i feel like things are back to the
way they use to be. just right. (: it's timee i blog about some
things i blanked out on before.

soo last month..
it was horrible, it was just a really stressful time.
things were just goin' from okie to bad to worse,
to just about horrible. i'm not shure how to put it
in words, but ima' do the best i can.
things started to fall apart mid feb but they really crashed
in march. it feels weird to have somethin' goin' so great,
fall apart. i don't really know what exactly happened, but i
do know i was at fault most of the time. i thought things ended on
the best note ever, but i was so wrong.
have you ever had the feelin' that someone you really cared about
slapped you in the face?
the feelin' sucks, but it happens. it caught me off guard. like a pop quiz,
i wasn't ready. but time wasn't goin' to wait for me, and it didn't.
i don't know, maybe it's wrong of me to feel this way, but i do.
i feel sort of betrayed in a way, and at that moment i didn't know what to say.
did you want me to lie? because i did. and i'm not sorry.
you told me it was "unfair", but honestly, is it?
have you looked at it from my point of view? i looked at it from yours.
i guess at one point i looked past it because i really care about you
whether you know it or not. and i'm really glad we're back to
where we were, really good friends? i want it to stay that way.
and as for everything else, i don't think it will ever be the same.
bestfriend isn't just a title, it has meanin', and you don't understand it.
maybe it's wrong of me, but i really don't care anymore.

but it's all over. i'm really glad i ended up where i did. (:
i don't know why, but i felt like bloggin' about it all one last time.

if i don't mind, it doesn't matter right?
"mind over matter"- james

-kanow