so i was sittin' tryin' to do my hw for about
2 straight hours, and i couldn't. i just kept thinkin'
about EVERYTHING. from the past month to
today's shieet day.
so lemme start this out with today's events.
attempted to go out with ed to jack in the box,
chris, jess, kat and me sat inside the car and eric& adam
trucked it. guess what?
we got caught. ward's office. detention. regret.
then after track, this one dude took ed's car out for a drive
without ed knownin' and totaled the car. wow.
doublee hit for ed :[ first he takes the blow of tryin' to drive us
out at lunch, and now he has a messed up car.
but that's not all that's got meee.
i thought alot about how things went from that one weekend.
don't you just hate it when you're ahead of the race, then someone
dashes right by you and you end up trippin' along the way.
and that persons done with the race and you are still tryin' to finish up.
you have poeple helpin' you along the way, and someone even
gets on that track and runs right along with you.
i feel so selfish, and no matter what i do i can't get past it, i can't finish the race.
and if i can't finish the race, then the person runnin' with me won't either.
how selfish is that? very.
please don't feel obligated to yell from the finish line that you're here.
cus i know you're not. not anymore at least.
i'm tryin' my hardest, no doubt about that. but my hardest isn't good enough.
i miss old times, but those times are gonee. i needa' get use to
what i got myself into. not myself lately, i needa' get back to reality.
sooo this part goes out to two friends i love alot (:
it's a little late but dust that shoulder of and try again.
you tripped but you got a whole mess of people waitin' for you to get up.
no doubt we've all been through what you guys have been through recently.
it sucks to keep tryin', to do everything in your power, just to see that one special
person brush it off like it was nothin'. if that's the case, in my opinion, that person
doesn't deserve you then. soo walk away. be the stronger person. lovee you guys <3
i feel like i'm stuck in a game. and i'm losin' big time.
crap week. crap day.
hope it gets better :/ doubt it.
i don't have a quote for times like this
-kanow
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kanow, i may be wrong but you seem to be hurting. but what makes you incredible beyond belief to me is how you keep your spirit up around others, careful to not bring them down alongside you. WOW. if you need it, i'll be offering them warm hugs, nd i know every1 else is helping in some way also. i like your sandwiches <3
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p.s.- btw, that running metaphor of yours happened to me on the track at downey. but i finished the race (though with messed up kneecaps), and so can you.